New Job

"It's not what you achieve, it's what you overcome. That's what defines your career."- Carlton Fisk 

As many of you know I recently moved. I moved for a job which over what seems like the last 15 years or so is my only reason for moving other than the 3 years I spent in grad school oh and the Debacle of 2006 (that's another story). I am happy to report that I feel and hope that this is the last move I make for quite some time...fingers crossed. 

This time I moved for a permanent full time job - yes I feel like an adult...finally well not really but lets keep that a secret. The thing is it still doesn't feel real. After I accepted the job I still felt like my new employer had perhaps been mistaken. I mean at the age of 40 and after all my years of working I still felt somewhat unprepared for this new job. It was just a mental thing - I mean how could I not be prepared for this job - its what I have been preparing and hoping for at least the last 10 + years and it finally arrived.

I had fixed feelings about leaving behind my old job. I worked with amazing people and it was hard to leave a job I enjoyed with great people behind for something unknown. This may seem a little strange coming from me because let's face I have spent my entire adult life moving from one place to another and moving from one job to another. However, I still felt like I was going to get a phone call saying sorry we made a mistake. So one night before I left my last job I told my supervisor I think my new boss may have made a mistake in choosing me - do you think I am ready for this? His response was great and very real - no one is ever prepared for this job but you'll do fine. Words of wisdom from someone who I really respect and feel incredibly lucky to have worked for. It was these words that made me realize that it wasn't just me who feels this way. All of us or at least most of us feel this way when we get a new job or the job we have been pursuing is finally achieved...after the elation has worn off that is. It's the self doubt of whether we truly feel prepared for this next step in our life and career. Are we truly ready for the adventure we have been waiting forever to actually happen?

Well the answer is yes with a side of don't let them think you are not! HaHa. When I arrived at my new job and saw I actually had an office with 4 real walls not cubicle walls I thought wow I guess its too late to run away now! Just kidding it was actually a pretty good feeling.  It felt like I had finally arrived at my career destination...a place I have been searching for, for quite a while. In addition to the new job, fancy  title and office I have great coworkers/staff. So although I miss all those great people I left behind I feel fortunate to have some pretty great people at my new job and this makes all the difference in the world. I guess what I am saying is that I finally feel prepared for this new adventure.